Pregnancy means waking up to pee every hour on the hour. When I woke up at 4:00 am, I just couldn’t drift back off into sleepy town. It happens often these days. It’s usually because of my athlete in training or my mind running ramped of things I need to accomplish. Then, there are times I just wake up and pray. I pray for my children. I pray for Kris. I pray for people in need of healing. I just pray.
It’s easy, especially in this stage of my journey carrying a child, to become self-focused. I still read scriptures. I’m still very aware of God’s presence in my life. But, I can still focus much too much on wanting this baby-carrying journey to end. So, when God centers me again, I want to fall down at the cross and thank Him for it. He does it for me often. He did it again at 4:00 am.
I made a little delivery room playlist on my iPod. The first song on that playlist is Jeremy Riddle’s “Sweetly Broken.” I haven’t been able to get these lyrics out of my head since my little wake-up call:
At the cross You beckon me
You draw me gently to my knees, and I am
Lost for words, so lost in love,
I’m sweetly broken, wholly surrendered
I’m so thankful for a Father who continues to beckon me, even when I become self-consumed. I’m so thankful that He allows me to surrender my stuff to Him – sometimes the same stuff more than once or ten times. I’m so thankful I’m in love with Him.
And, that He first loved me.
Sweetly broken. That’s me today.
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Great words and thoughts this morning. I hear ya. Now, if you could just be broken and “poured out” too! 😉
Love you. Your time is so close!
Haha. So true! And laughing at the “poured out” part!
that song messes me up…in a good way:)
Soon you will be waking up at 4am for a different reason… Love you. Love your post.
Love that song!! Great blog. 🙂 Now on another note…while you were up did you happen to do any of those lunges I told you about??
I am thankful God never gives up or let’s go!! Great blog Dusty!! Thanks!
DUSTY. SO good. I really needed to hear those words today SWEETLY broken. He does it in LOVE.