I don’t often stare at a blank, white screen as long as I stared at one for this post. It was an emotional evening with my son yesterday. This pregnancy seems to be drawing from John Henry some emotions and questions about his Daddy Bryan and me. And, one particular issue I wasn’t prepared for. It’s not something I feel at liberty to share just yet, but I will when the time is right. For now, my heart is heavy, and I’m seeking God in how I respond to my sweet, tender son.
You see, this is the beautiful part about following Christ. Because, whenever I feel….
In desperate need of wisdom and guidance.
I go to my Shepherd.
The Lord says, “I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you. Psalm 32:8
I go to my Counselor.
And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Counselor to be with you forever. John 14:16
I go to my Rock.
….when my heart is overwhelmed. Lead me to the towering rock of safety…. Psalm 61:2
Can you imagine doing life without Him?
The one thing I ask of the Lord–the thing I seek most–is to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, delighting in the Lord’s perfections. Psalm 27:4
Wow. What a desire. To live in the presence of God. To have such a love for Him that we are constantly running after Him.
I cannot tell you how much I want to live my life this way. Where daily devotions and spending time with my Father are not a struggle. Where I don’t say or feel exhaustively, “I have to go read.” “I have to go pray.” But, I run – I mean really run to Him. Because, I am in love with this massive, incomprehensible, extraordinary Creator.
What’s even more astounding is that this massive, incomprehensible, extraordinary Creator wants to spend time with me. When, I am nothing. And, He is everything.
I am reading Francis Chan’s Crazy Love right now. It is chalked full of God’s Word – how truly great He is – and what it really means to live a surrendered life. Whenever I can get my brain to wrap around what God is doing in me through this book, I will definitely share more.
I want to seek Him more than anything else.
What are you seeking most right now?