So, I was sitting on my sofa, laptop in lap, my large canine friend in front of me, and incredibly hot husband to the right of me.
“I’ve got nothin’. I mean, I have nothing to write about. Not when I’m feeling the way I’m feeling,” I blurted out to Kris.
That was hard to admit. Not running on empty in the creative writing department part. We all know “creative writing” and dustytakledotcom are not necessarily synonymous. It was hard to admit that I was struggling inside with some emotions that I have withheld for, oh, about a week. Ya see, I don’t suppress anything for long. It’s just not my nature. But, these feelings, for personal reasons, were just hard to uncover with Kris. And, it wasn’t his stuff. It was mine. All mine.
So, I told him. And, I cried. I cried some more. Then, a little more.
Every once in a while, I have an old issue that sneaks up on me. And, I feel those feelings again. An issue that I nailed to the cross long ago. It’s an issue that tries to disguise itself as performance-minded or self-sufficiency. But, when I tear away its mask, I see it for what it really is.
Insecurity. A need for validation.
I knew exactly what prompted those feelings. Being honest with my feelings wrapped in a blanket of tears was what I needed.
Ahhh. All better now.
If you’re having your own internal struggle right now, find a safe place and open your heart to him or her. And, if you really want to get it all out, then cry, baby, cry.
Do you ever just need a good cry?
10 responses to “It’s my party. I’ll cry if I want to.”
Dusty, I think everyone needs a good cry every once in a while! We are human! I think we try our best to be strong and put our worries in God’s hands, but sometimes it’s hard to let go of that worry. It’s normal! I say, keep praying, let the tears flow if needed and go have some chips and queso therapy! Be strong and know you are loved!
Oh yeah, we all have those moments (days, weeks). My hot button is feeling powerless. That issue can drop me off the ledge faster than I can say “help me Jesus”!
Ohhhhhhhhhh Grasshopper….I LOVE YOU!
It’s a victory when satan uses our insecurities against us, and then Christ reminds us that they’re still nailed to the cross. How easily I forget. When our heart is readjusted, a good cry just brings healing.
Love you, Dusty Takle.
Whew, yeah, tears are not a thing I love to do. But it does happen. You feel stuff, sad, or stress, anger. Then it is there or you have tears that release it, make it feel better, brings strength! I cry, sometimes it is triggered, or sometimes it is someone being prompted to ask me,”is everything alright? And I respond, yeah, everything is fine” (not wanting to get it out there) lol, then they ask, “Are you sure?” I am not used to anyone asking me, so, thennnn, God moves to heal, or soften my heart.
Dusty, you are sooo special and it is good to show your humaness!! It is good to be real! love you!
Yeah, this week has been pur..ty tough. Haven’t felt good physically…cold weather and fibromyalgia and joint pain don’t make for a good combo. I just have to remember that when I have done all I can do, just stand! I layed it all down but have to keep reminding myself that God is in control and HE doesn’t need my help so not to pick it back up!
I will come give you a hug=) Love you sweet friend.
I realize I am a day late on this post but I was out yesterday getting my nerves burned in my neck. Lovely. Yes, this week has been a week of tears, my friend. You know why. The Lord knows why. But I still don’t understand why. Why the hurt still lingers, still continues and why the hurt and despair still rages on. All I can do is continue to give it to Him. I thought the long road was behind us but I believe it is still way ahead but as long as He walks with us, nothing else really matters. He holds my hand in His and I give Him all of my physical pain and emotional grief to Him and rest in His loving arms knowing that He is in control of all things.
I love a good cry. I always feel better afterwards. I fight with the enemy about insecurity. It had been an issue for me forever. I am always scared that people won’t like me, that I am not good enough.
So there are many benefits to crying. Did you know that 90% or the content of your tears is fat? Love You…You are beautiful, funny and way loved by Jesus. 🙂
Boy your tellin me! I’ve never been one to hold back….Anything! part weakness, part strength I guess. My wife tries to reassure me that when I feel that way that there’s nothing wrong with it. Like, “you’ve have’nt lost your man card hunny…*crying during incredibly emotional moments in mostyl girly movies, or during some ridiculous commercial…Yeah I get that way sometime. and even still God is gooooood!