Do I miss blogging every single day? Well, of course, I do. The unfortunate part in it all is that I’ve had a lot to write about, and my time has not accommodated my fingers on a keyboard. Except for the teeny, tiny keyboard on my iPhone, of course.
I hardly know how to compile all of these thoughts in my head in an orderly, coherent fashion. I’ll start with this. It’s been a roller coaster couple of weeks. After birthin’ that sweet boy of mine, I was due for my yearly pap smear. Ahem, pardon me, men friends and readers. It wasn’t my best performance. Okay, it wasn’t the news I was looking for. So, I went in for a little more haven’t I had enough goin’ on up there these past few weeks extensive, hmmm, exploration? I hoped and prayed that this would put an end to the exploration of the wild, blue yonder. Alas, it did not. Again, not the results I was looking for.
So, here I sit awaiting a little outpatient surgery to investigate the matter further. I’ve heard the “C” word. I’ve heard hysterectomy. I’ve heard it could be absolutely nothing to worry my pretty, little salon-maintained, blonde head over.
But you know what? I am okay. As a matter of fact, I’m even thankful. Thankful that had I faced this one year ago today, Kris and I would probably not have had the opportunity to pursue, if you will, having the beautiful, little boy who has my heart on a string.
But, God knew one year ago what I would be facing today. And, He knew Jett Takle before he was formed in my womb.
He knows the number of hairs on my head. He knows what my tomorrow looks like.
And, that is the amazement of it all.
So, no matter what tomorrow looks like for me.
No matter what the future holds.
He holds it in His hand.
And, I am okay.
Besides, He gave me this March 22, 2010.
And, if that’s not a testament to the sovereignty of God….well, it just is.
Because, He knew.
….But not a single sparrow can fall to the ground without your Father knowing it. Matthew 10:29