I must be honest. Really, I must. I sort of feel silly for writing this post, because, I overcame the feelings I’m about to share with you about as quickly as they surfaced. But, if I’m going to be transparent on this blog, then I should be transparent. Right?
So, yesterday, I felt insecure. Insecure in how I look. Insecure in what I provide (or don’t provide) for my family….
Granted, I’m pregnant. I’m hormonal. Insecurities can happen to any woman – hormonal or not. But, I don’t like that feeling. I don’t like feeling “Oh heavens, if people could see me now with no make-up in my elastic waistband shorts and t-shirt that is fitting even more snug around the chest thanks to the growing size of my ta-tas and such.” You know. THAT feeling. Of course, I’m not ashamed at all to show you my freshly highlighted hair. That’s something, right?
So, I was dealing with all of these yuck feelings. Then, I’d wonder what in the Sam Hill Kris Takle could see in me now? Except, I do clean up well and can be ridiculously funny. But still.
After I put the kids to bed, I sat down on my sofa, and I thought about these feelings. Then, it struck me. At what point in my week did I begin making things all about me? At what point in my week did I fail to recognize my Creator, and who He is in my life? At what point did I fail to read His word? At what point did I take my eyes off of Him and put them on me?
I am enough. You are enough. Because, of His grace.
I didn’t chastise myself. I didn’t feel this huge urge to ask God for forgiveness. Instead, I felt relief. Relief knowing that all I have to do is look once again into my Savior’s eyes and see who I really am. A girl in elastic waistband shorts who is loved by a King.
I remember I’m a temple of God, and His Spirit lives in me. (1 Cor. 3:16)
And, again, I find my identity in Him.
Then, I’m okay.
10 responses to “When Insecurities Strike.”
Love this Dusty! Such a good reminder!
You are beautiful…and even more beautiful when you are “with child” :)…
In a word, NICE!
I am enough. Because of His grace.
I needed that. Thank you. I love you.
Don’t we all struggle from time to time with insecurities? I wish it to be different but the bottom line is that there will ALWAYS be days when we feel less than we should about ourselves.
Many times insecurity has its roots in negative messages, which were fed to us when we were growing up. These are false messages. The uncluttered truth is you are a divine being. I practice writing and speaking affirmations that confirm this, and I am always connected to our inner source (GOD) who provides me with constant divine guidance.
He makes everything glorious and I am His…What does that make Me??? 🙂
Great blog Dusty!! Yeah, sometimes insecurities try to come to drag us down, but “we remember”, His love, & then nothing seems to matter!! Thank you for blogging this subject. It is a constant reminder to reach out of ourselves! And you Dusty are a beautiful girl, with or without make up!!! Kris fell in love with that girl who is Dusty always…”the real deal”!!
At least you get to dump the elastic shorts and tshirt after 9 months. We men are stuck with them for life.