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Sometimes, I Think I’m Good At Doing God’s Job.

My friend, Robin Storch, said something that was pretty life-changing for me recently.  For real!  Life-changing!  She was sharing something God had showed her, but followed it up with, “But it’s not my job to convince him of anything.”

I know.  It sounds simple.  But, I find that whenever God shows me something about someone or something, I always feel compelled to convince the other party, usually my husband, to step forward in that direction.  After all, God told me so.  Shouldn’t he trust the voice of the Father in my life?  But, in reality, it’s not my job to convince him or anyone of what God tells me. 

Because, I’m not the Holy Spirit.  But, I do play a good one.  Okay, I don’t.  But, I like to think I do.

I can only share my heart, and leave it.  I have to trust God to show Kris or whomever this concerns when HE is ready. 

So, that is it. 

It’s not my job to convince someone else of something God shows me. 

He’s God.  I’m not.  I’ll let Him do His thing.

He’s better at it.

Do you ever try to be the Holy Spirit?

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My Pre-Blogging Life.

Long before I started this Randomness journal online, I had this journal.

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This book has been in my life since October of 1986.  Susan Woodward (Mimi) gave it to me.  See?

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That was twenty-three years ago.  TWENTY-THREE!  That would have made me 11 years old.  I pulled out that old journal last night.  I have written in this journal every year since 1986 until 2003.  My very first entry began like this:

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The title of my entry was “The First Time the Lord Spoke to Me.”  I read through the writing of an eleven year old with a thirty-four year old heart.  I can still remember her and what she felt.  I read about a young girl wanting to hear God speak to her about a situation.  I wanted to hear a yes or a no.  I simply heard a trust that my parents’ decision is the will of God. 

I can remember my father telling me “no” concerning an event I wanted to hear a “yes” to.  I wrote, “Before the Lord spoke to me, I just knew I’d be disappointed if dad said no.” 

When God speaks, it should bring us peace.  It should make trusting Him easier, because His thoughts are so much higher than our thoughts.  It was such a simple concept for me to grasp at age 11.  But, at 34, I forget, on occasion, to be solely dependent on Him and what He says. 

I forget to trust His voice.

I forget to trust His voice in scriptures. 

I need that eleven year old girl to remind me more often that His very voice can calm stormy waters and bring peace to an unsettled heart. 

How do I ever forget that?

Incline my heart to your word.  Psalm 119:36

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Whispers.


This past Sunday I heard Pastor Bill Hybels, via video broadcast, share on what to do with whispers from God.  He gave us many examples of whispers from God in His own life.  And, if you look at Pastor Hybels’ life, there is no question that he has heeded most, if not all, of those whispers.

I can recall many whispers in my own life.  I’ve answered many and ignored a few.  But, oh the difference our life makes when we not only listen to the voice of God but do something with it.  Quite simply put, obey.

I remember whispers as a little girl.  But none strike me more than a whisper in my freshman year of college.  It was usually during my drives to school that the Holy Spirit and I would converse.  I’d talk to Him.  He’d listen and probably try to tug back.  Those were sweet moments in my young life. 

During this same time I watched an old video of Kathryn Kuhlman who began an incredible ministry when she was sixteen.  As a matter of fact, my parents re-dedicated their lives to Christ in a Kathryn Kuhlman meeting back in the early seventies.  What attracted me most to Kathryn was her anointing.  You knew it wasn’t just her when she walked out to minister to others.  But, she was truly a vessel being used by an Almighty Father.

On one of my drives after watching this old video, the Holy Spirit met me in my car again.  “I’m calling you just like I called Kathryn Kuhlman.”  I’m pretty sure I wept the entire drive to school and had a hard time shaking that moment – that whisper – for many days after.  Now, I’m not so foolish to think that God was telling me that I would have the same impact as a Kathryn.  But, I knew that He was calling me to me live a life that was beyond myself.  To live a life that brought glory to Him.

My journey since that moment has been unpredictable, as life often is.  I still do not feel that I have begun to do all He has set before me to do.  But, I do feel that it is my responsibility to answer those whispers along the way.  When He tells me to give to an individual.  To call someone.  To serve a friend or stranger.  To write a post for this blog.

I do not take to a podium like my father.  If I ever hear that whisper, I will.  But for now, this is my podium.  Silliness and all.  I don’t have all the answers.  As a matter of fact, I have very few.  But, I want you to know that I am here to talk to you, to pray with you.  You can always e-mail me direct at durstee@aol.com. 

In the meantime, listen to His whispers.  He loves you with a love that surpasses all understanding.  And, He wants to tell you something.

My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me.  John 10:27

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